What an incredible Saturday! The weather is beautiful. I just took a walk along the river, and people were sprawled out on blankets all along the trail, kids running all around the park, discs flying on the frisbee golf course- just a great day to be outside in Tulsa, Oklahoma!
Sometimes you have to let a good blog post swirl around in your head for a while before it will come out on a paper- er, Blogspot. That's the case for today's post. And since I have no meetings beconing me, no auctions to broadcast, nothing imment on the agenda- the time has come. The words are ready.
I turn 27 in just over a week. And lately, I've had this overwhelming feeling that I'm behind. I just can't seem to shake it. Don't get me wrong- I'm so happy with my life, and I know- without a shadow of a doubt- that I'm where I'm supposed to be. That God has me in exactly the spot I'm supposed to be in.
But it's hard. It's hard seeing people around me in happy relationships that lead to engagement and marriage and not say, when is it my turn? My heart gets this little twinge when I find out someone is pregnant, and I wonder when that will be my reality.
But it's a Catch-22. I have a job I love, and now- more than ever- I have so many projects outside of work taking up my time- and truly fulfilling me. The variety show, the home improvement show I'm working on- two amazing projects that are my significant others these days, my "babies" so to speak.
I'm living out my passions in my career. Who gets to say that?!
And I'm planning some amazing trips this year. I moved into my house. I'm surrounded by friends and family and laughter and joy. I feel such a sense of accomplishment- that as a single woman, I am capable of fulfilling all of my dreams on my own.
But sometimes that little twinge pops up. And, with another birthday on the horizon, it seems like a tiny reminder of all of the things still yet to happen.
And I guess that's just it- they are yet to happen. I know all of my dreams- from career to carseats and adventure to engagement- will all happen.
So, this year, I choose not to look at what hasn't happened, but what is still to come. And what amazing experiences I'm living out right now, in the present.
No wishes when I'm blowing out the candles this year- just thankfulness for where I'm at right now, today. Lindsay at (almost) 27.
Single (and happy) gal, signing out.
I am very impressed! Such a good perspective Lindsay. The truth is that no season can or will last forever and someday you'll look back on this season and be thankful that you lived it to the fullest. So may this year be one of great adventures and many wonderful surprises!
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