Holding on to the Happy

So, today was hard. I knew it would be. My first "fully-functioning" day, where I had to wear make-up and go to meetings and deal with life.

I have a new respect for people who put a smile on their face, even when their hearts are breaking.

I miss Toby sooo much- but, I'm really trying to hold on to the happy.

Like... how much support I've gotten from loved ones around me.

... And how God never said it would be easy... just that we wouldn't be alone. (Thanks for the reminder in the car, Ginny Owens!)

And how a year from now, i'll be looking back on this time right now, stronger. With a cocktail in hand as I gaze out at the beach.

No, really, it's true. I'll be in San Diego a year from now for the BlogHer Conference!

Holding on to the happy.